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Friday, February 28

Not going to dwell on results any longer. You get good spells in life sometimes and bad spells sometimes. I had a pretty good spell academically when I was younger and bad spell socially but I believe it has become a bad spell academically and good spell socially for like these past 4 years. Somehow I know it'll balance out one day. I do not believe in any God (even though I yell "Oh my God" quite frequently) but I do believe in luck. Kelly and Roszaimy have got it going for them academically and socially now and look to be blessed with some luck currently. Bah. Pretty philosophical and draggy right? Maybe I should be called The Professor Who Tries To Be Mad But Isn't And Sounds Like Some Boring Old Hag. Too long.

Something's on my mind is whether I look like a sir. You know, those sirs in the army and uniformed groups that scream their head off and scold you for moving too fast or moving too slowly. Some of my cadets have been addressing me as 'Sir' when I go back to school for SJAB training on Saturday and that is rather unbelievable. Read on and you'll know why.

MOST sirs have:
-Grouchy, ugly faces
-Muscular sometimes stocky bodies
-Crew cuts or dodgy hairstyles
-Hoarse, rough voices
-Shout at everything
-A boring personality
-No girlfriend
-Terrible fashion sense

While in my case
-wear sandals for training
-unkempt, long, messy hair
-wear t-shirts that sometimes have cartoons on them
-don't EVER shout at cadets
-a silly face that smiles too much
-a body that resembles a stick
-am known for being eccentric
-have a rabbit for a girlfriend

In reality, I'm not a sir, so... DO I LOOK LIKE ONE?


I'm not going to moan or get all ecstatic about my 'O' Level results mainly because there wasn't anything worth mentioning. My mum wasn't angry so you know it wasn't too bad. If you really wanna know what happened today you can check out Ros's and Kelly's diaries 'cos they heve described the events rather succinctly. And oh, I got a distinction for my English Language so now you should know why I'm so particular about grammar mistakes. Bragging huh? Well, that's the only thing I can brag about and I wanna brag all I can about it. HAH. Sorry.

Wondering how Azhar (my friend) fared.


Wednesday, February 26

Page's a bit messy but it'll be sorted out in 24 hours.

[added at 10.00pm]
Dawn's rumoured to have appeared on TV in an ad for some cream...can't really believe it, plus it loses credibility as it comes from the big mouth of Koh Ching Ming and I thought Dawn was working at the Man Utd store? As far as I know Man Utd don't sell creams. I haven't seen it, no one other than Ching Ming has seen it so nobody knows whether it's for real or more filth from Ching Ming's mouth. Jeez...

It's getting really annoying to see more and more people wearing winter wear in SUNNY Singapore. Knit hats, leather jackets, woollen sweaters...these people either need to go back to nusery school to learn about Spring and Summer or change their fasion sense. Winter clothing is like not-in-fashion now and I have no idea why people wear them in the afternoon. Mega Jeez...

'O' Level Results out tommorrow...Giga Jeez...wrestling's on TV now...watching men fight in underwear can be pretty interesting sometimes...


Tuesday, February 25

Managed to wake up to watch the match 'cos the rabbit peed on me while I was sleeping...grrrr...bed's dirty again...disgusting right

Watched the match betweeen Juve and Man Utd...and was I happy when Juve made 3 mistakes to allow United to win 3-0 comfortably. Giggs scored 2 - a tap-in and a fantastic goal somewhat similar to the goal he scored against Arsenal in the FA Cup 4 years ago. Ruud poked in another tap-in after Tudor make a hash out of his backpass. Man of the match for me would be either Roy Keane or Nicky Butt. Keane performed wonderfully as a defender and Butt kept Davids quiet by constantly butting him. Giggs had to go off due to an injury - and Ferguson used the same words West Ham's Glenn Roeder used when he took off Di Canio -"He picked up a knock and wasn't running freely," - pretty popular phrase these days.


'O'h Level results will be out on Friday and can be collected at 2.30pm from the school. Like I care.

Results of my study on why people feel like peeing in the lift are up.

Report/Reasons on why people often want to pee in the lift
1.They feel confined and get nervous.
2.Lift air has some bladder stimulant
3.Just happen to need to go everytime
4.Person drunk
5.Cool to tell people you peed in the lift
6.Lift looks like a loo
7.Nothing better to do
8.Naughty people want to be naughty
9.So they can save on the water bill by not using toilet at home
10.You like to hear the alarm sound when you urinate
11.You want to spoil the lift for some reason
12.Thought was a cubicle
13.Person has too much money and wants to pay $500 fine
14.Person prefers lift to smell of ammonia
15.You hate the cleaner


Monday, February 24

grrrr...a BIG grrrr 'cos the dumb blogger won't listen to me and the e-mail link is down for now.

[edit] seems to be working fine now...dumb HTML stuff...[/edit]

always look on the bright side of life...toot toot toot toot toot toot toot toot...hmm...badly out of tune


TV Time.

Watched the Grammy Awards. A REAL BORE. The Grammy People decided to tell the audience the winner before they read out the nominations for some awards. That's real exciting. Yeah. Like it ups the mood of the already lousy atmosphere. "And the winner is... (whoever just performed on stage)". Another bad point was there was no host. Oh c'mon, just follow the tradition. A host will make corny jokes and make people laugh. Having no host makes it an even bigger bore. The performances sucked too. Gwen Stefani was horrible. Avril Lavigne was off-key. God knows what John Mayer and the Dixie Chicks were singing. Norah Jones fared slightly better with her monotonous singing. Only Eminem was interesting. Too many unknown faces. Why did I even bother to watch it.

Watched Fear Factor which was much more interesting than the Bor-Grammy-ing Awards. They're gonna ask the contestants to strip next week. THAT is gonna perk up my interest in the show by quite a lot mainly because the show has become rather stale. Gonna tell myself not to miss that one.

'O' Level results are gonna be out in 2-3 days time. For all people out there, just keep a cool head and tell yourself it's gonna be okay and don't worry too much. The more you worry, the more you despair. So, be like me and adopt a heck-care attitude until that day where you can worry for a few hours and it's over.

Still fiddling with the HTML. Good Luck if you need any for the 'O'h Level results. Cheerio and smile.


Been fiddling around with the HTML of this page 'cos I need to so don't blame me if things are a bit weird looking. Also trying to clutter up the page a bit for no particular reason. You can't seem to find those black and white counters which count the number of visitors these days, can you?

Kelly's saying on her site that she's upset over friendships or something like that. She was okay when I went with her and Robbie to TP's Open House but she's changed her mood after a day. I know how she feels 'cos I felt the same way in the first few weeks of the new year and you can track back if you want to for the proof. You just have to move on.

Ms Koo got engaged on Valentine's Day and that came as a shock when I found that out in school on Saturday. I knew she had a boyfriend but I didn't really expect her to get engaged anytime soon. Anyway, she's gonna become a Mrs Ivy Ng and I wish her the best 'cos she one of my more favourite teachers.

Also got labelled by Sheng Jin as a pervert - in a fun way, not anything serious - for the first time in my life on Saturday while chatting on the IRC. I think he got the wrong idea as to why I left SJAB training early and went with Kelly and Robbie to TP. Yeah rite, I'm a pervert. I was more like a bodyguard to Kelly and Robbie that day.

I know some friends have been reading all my garbage these few days and thanks. I know Ros, Yani and Xiuhui have read my crap and thanks for your time. I really appreciate it.

Speaking of garbage, it just reminded me of the days in school (CTSS) where I had slanging matches with Carmen (Clement to other ppl) who's in Thailand right now to test each other's vocabulary. Garbage, Trash, Rubbish, Crap, Nonsense, Nincompoop, Dustbin, Bacteria, Junk, Litter, Waste, Debris, Filth...


Sunday, February 23

Michael Jackson's been victimized by the press. That's my verdict. There's nothing wrong with sharing a room or bed with children and the press are making it sound a lot worse than it was, or never was. He has children and he, being a child at heart, would never do anything of a sexual nature to little boys and girls. Reminds me of how the English press are currently blowing up the Beckham-Ferguson boot saga. I admit I would feel uneasy if I had children and they slept with a stranger but genuinely, the world's a good place and if you have the right contacts and are in the right company, strangers you meet will be of the "good" kind and won't do anything that violates the kids' rights. I don't know if I'm being too trustworthy or naive, but I believe that there aren't too many morally bad people in the world.

Look, I think I'm far worse - I sleep with a rabbit and a stuffed cat sometimes!


Saturday, February 22

Somehow I feel that Michael Jackson's been victimized. Okay, he looks terrible but he chooses how he wants to look like. Personally, I feel that his hairstyle is better now, although his face is, well, square-shaped. There's a television interview airing around the world and it seems to be condemning him. But what the heck, he's 44 years old, looks like a freak and says he shares beds with little boys! Controversial and eccentric.

Gonna do a study on why we always seem to want to go to the loo while we're in the lift...


Friday, February 21

pretty weird website statistics i've been receiving for this site...an Icelander viewing all these junk? if there really is (and if you do visit again) i wouldn't mind you mailing me just to let me know because I'm not used to knowing that strangers are viewing my site.

Speaking on Icelanders, I think they're a pretty cool bunch of people. Okay, I admit I don't know much about Iceland and that they have pretty long last names but it's quite interesting for me to hear someone say "I'm from Iceland". I don't know why but it's just interesting. One thing I know is that football players Eidur Gudjohnsen, Joey Gudjonsson, Omar Johansson are from there and people there support Stoke City. It somehows make me feel kinda ashamed when I hear of a whole nation cheering for a small struggling club and here I am, like a glory hunter, getting angry when results don't go Man Utd's way. Whatever the case, just win the League Cup Man Utd and I'll be sastified.

Gonna tamper with the site's HTML over these few days so expect a few niggling size problems...


Wednesday, February 19

grrr...didn't manage to catch the match

match was at 3.30am and i woke up at 3.25am but being LAZY i wanted to sleep for 5 mins more. And then i missed the match. It would have been great 'cos Man U won the match 2-1 with goals from OG-kid Wes Brown and (as I predicted) Ruud. There's an atmosphere about getting up in the mornings to catch soccer matches. I don't know how but every single guy who crawls out of bed in the wee hours to catch a match will feel it. You can just feel your friends cheering with you somehow through the air. Now I have to wait until Sunday to watch it 'cos my cable TV dosen't have sports channels...grr

really should have placed my alarm clock away from reaching distance. i force myself up by putting the alarm clock far away like in a corner of the room but somehow i put it on the end table last night. anyway...the bunny was visibly scared by the alarm clock ringing this morning...hmm


football or soccer (for USA only...grrr) in this post up...

pretty interesting stuff ahead of Man U's clash with Juventus...Juve have 15 players out most of them mainly through influenza and a few through twisted knees or tangled arms (sorry i couldn't resist it). Players out include Goalkeeper Gianluigi Buffon, Defender Lillian Thuram, Forwards Alessandro Del Piero and Marco Di Vaio and 11 other people. Even coach Marcello Lippi has flu. Personally, i think it's great that Thuram's out of the game as he's a great defender and would pose trouble to the both off-key Ryan Giggs and/or Ole Gunnar Solskjaer. Ole can't seem to score these days and Giggs...obviously low on confidence.

Personally i felt that he (Giggs) should have scored against Arsenal but you can't really blame him for missing as he's been unlucky. He shot using his weaker right foot and from PERSONAL experience, your weaker foot - in my case the left - can betray you at times. i've made poor passes or miskicked with my left foot and it's been embarrasing. You connect with the ball but the ball dosen't seem to go where you want it. Giggs was also some distance out and needed some power in his weak foot and that was probably why he missed. Exerting unneccesary power in your weak foot.

On tonight's match, Man U will be expecting to win as Juve are having a 'flu crisis' and the match's at Old Trafford. They'll also want to show Arsenal who should win the Premiership and Champions League and distract the flying boot incident from the media. Juve still have good players available in Pavel Neved, Edgar Davids and David Trezeguet but i think they'll be too depleted (even the coaches are sick) for this match. Personally, I think it'll still be a tight affair and Man U will nick this one 2-0 with Ruud scoring both.

I've just remembered that you can use your weaker foot for kicking opponents to get a red card. Now that's something that's useful for your weaker foot - get a red card.


Tuesday, February 18

rather unusual event of england football captain David Beckham getting hit by a boot, unsurprisingly booted by Man Utd manager Sir Alex Ferguson. Rather unusual event for the newspapers to make a big hoo-haa about 'cos others like Jaap Stam have also gone through this. But nonetheless made for a rather unusual read. But i had a far from rather unusual day today.

went for the dumb course. they did maths and i was esctatic about it, cos it was like school days. doing calculations and having friendly banter. What I was not so estactic about was all the rubbish about a second term. I DEFINETELY do NOT want to stay there after June. I RESENT going there, i have a dumb test which i'm expecting to fail tomorrow, or today, cos i'm typing past 12midnight and i HATE that place. i'm not really clear about these matters but I DEFINITELY do not want to walk into that centre for lessons in July or even June. i'm told and (luckily)assured that i'm there until June and i'm fine with that. Any nonsense about a second term from May to August and i'll blow up if i hear any rubbish of this sort. this is one of the reasons why i do not want to stay there. from the mouth of avril lavigne:"WHY DO YOU HAVE TO MAKE THINGS SO COMPLICATED?" and the verse after it which i forgot. i think it contains 'frustrated' and that is what i'm feeling now. its so messy and unorganised (what/why/huh? the heck did you plan? When does my course end? What happens in the future?). The uncertainty and insecurities are why i want to leave that PLACE. A government school, like a poly, would well, assure me naturally etc. and be HEAVEN.

i'm really hoping i can get into a polytechnic, any polytechnic, cos i'll be happier when i'm secure at a poly rather than at informatics. other students may have had success there but for me, i would say i hate and fear that place. It's hell.

just hoping O level results will spring a surprise - that is doing well - 'cos i'm pretty insecure about it. get me into a poly and i'll be sastified. heck, just get me out of informatics - with a diploma - and i'll be happy.

hmm

english - expecting a good result here, A1 or A2 would be ideal...C5-C6 would be upsetting...
e maths - expecting a good result here too. wouldn't mind an A2-B3
a maths - i'll be happy just to pass.
science - i'll be happy to pass this 1 too
biology - same here too.
humanities - feelin good about this one, but then there could be a surprise...sastified with a B3-B4
chinese - already have a C6 - which was my target. i hate chinese.

just hoping i can pass 5 subjects...


Sunday, February 16

i'm seem to be getting disillusioned and disoriented in my life. i don't know why but i am feeling very out of place everywhere i go except when i'm back at my alma mater every saturday. I hate the course, I hate the stuff i'm doing now, i hate my rotting life now. i can't study, i can't do anything, even playing's become boring. the only things on my slightly happier thoughts on my mind now are optimism for the 'o' level results and a few special people whom i think of daily. i'm sick, i'm tired and i'm unhappy. i just wanna rid my mind of all these crap...i wish i was studying in school now...i wish i was young again...the uncertainty of not being in a GOVERNMENT school right now is killing me...i be one of the relieved and happiest people around if i get into a poly cos i'm sick of the dumb course i'm doing now...i just hope my results can allow me to get to a poly(or even jc) which i would go as far as to name 'heaven'.

how i wish i told my mum i wanted to learn french instead of keeping quiet...i hate the dumb diploma in computer studies i'm doing now...it dosen't interest me at all and now i regret not mentioning my interest and having to endure this torture. i just have to make do with this and hope that i can pass this course without trouble...and that doesn't seem easy. i really miss classroom and school life. i just wanna get my 'o' level results due a few weeks from now and SMILE on that day. if i smile...i won't be so moody and pessimistic about the course and most likely it'll go up from there. if i frown...i don't know what to say.....i think i would sit and cry.

its been ages since i could smile and have no worries for a day........................................i just wanna smile..................................


Wednesday, February 12

well i'll be happy with how the ctss sjab are doing this year! i went back to school (as usual) last saturday and even though my target of 28 didn't materalise, i'm more than happy with the 21 that showed up. really enthusiastic bunch of people. SPCA sales have also done well, with me donating $12 and a few 5c coins, and with a total of $127 being garnered on the day i went to school (tuesday). that is easily the highest figure we have collected in 1 day for the two years we have held this sale. also felt really important when i was requested to stand in front of the parade as a VIP on Saturday...hah! that pesky minnow felicia also's been getting rather rude and annoying lately...better ask someone to discipline her. things looking up eh?

actually, to be honest, apart from the SJAB, i've haven't had things going well for me. i've been sick for like the past 3 days and it's not nice to be sick. could be due to the lack of exercise...hmm. i've also found out that my "famous" sense of humour seems to have deserted me and that is really depressing. i don't know why but i've arrowed it (my inability to fool around) down to a few reasons. it could be due to the fact that i have to attend dumb classes which are so boring and are of no interest to me every weekday afternoon which often leaves me very depressed or maybe it could be because the 'O' Level results are going to be released in 2 weeks time and i'm not very confident about getting good grades. it's really depressing though no one's really mentioned about it, but i can sense that they are wondering why i've suddenly become so sombre. i don't like it and i don't want to be known as a serious guy. friends used to ask if i was mad as i was often grinning for no particular reason but i can't even manage a smile these days. depressing. bah...always look on the bright side on life..toot toot toot toot toot toot toot toot...hmm..badly out of tune.