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Wednesday, December 31
10 people remembered my birthday.
I don't celebrate birthdays anyway.
But thank you.
Ms Chua Ghim Siu
Ms Hee Siwe Ping
Mr Justin Yew
Mr Teo Wee Ping
a person with HP number 9635something
Mr Alan Koh, I think, did.
someone
someone
someone
Mum. Family rather. Bought a cake, dinner whatever.
Boring day.
Went out for a while.
Got a book.
End of day.
Boring day.
2004.
Big deal.
I'm still bored.
But I've been thinking about my future.
I'm apprehensive about what lies in future for me.
Right now things are smooth and fine.
Nicely laid out. 2.2 years more. Diploma. Doodah.
After that its a big question mark.
I know someone who's probably going to leave S'pore
in a couple of year's time
she has the financial muscle anyway to never come back
That'll be sad.
But then again decisions can change over time.
What about me?
What will I be doing?
Will I be living in Australia, in the US, in Melbourne, in NY, in years to come?
I won't make it to NUS. I don't want to anyway.
Ignore NS. That's irrelevant.
Anyway,
I don't want to remain in Singapore forever
but my mind says 'leave' and my heart says 'stay'
whatever will be my decision?
it'll be so much more reassuring
if there was an acquaintance with me
if I ever go overseas.
to study. not emigrate. maybe emigrate. dunno.
I'm terrible at adapting to new surroundings
Because I tend to be skeptical.
And I'm scared at the thought of being stuck alone in a foreign land.
My future, after 2.2 years, isn't clear.
I'm worried.
I'm bored.
Very.
And I hate that feeling.
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